Lifes up's and down's

Well life has certainly been very crazy lately. Mandy has spent 42 days in the hospital for a very serious fungal infrection in her heart. We are just waiting for the surgery date now to replace both of her valves again.

Through i all I had a very difficult time. I lean on my sister a lot and suddenly I felt like I was on the verge of losing her. I also felt so alone and I had so many decisions to make that affected both of our lives. decided to moveus back home. (Luckily I have an amazing family that basically took care of it for me once the decision was made. ) Sadly through it all I kind of forgot what really matters and WHO is always there for me. I didn't read my scriptures or pray for more than my sisters health. EventuallyI had a break down in front of my parents. My parents are amazing and my dad has the skill of calming me down.

He told me I needed to kind of be selfish and pray for ME as well as the other things. He also told me that I needed to read my scriptures daily. He can tell when im not studying my scriptures cuz im not happy when i dont. I went home after that talk and did what he told me. I read in Alma chapter 34 and by the end of it I was in tears cuz of the feeling of peace and total love and acceptance I felt. Its a amazing chapter for sure :). I fell down to my knees and thanked my Heavenly Father for his love. I realized I can never be alone when I have my Savior and live the commandments and ask for his strength and help through my weak spots.

I am truly blessed especially with everything going on. I feel 100 times more comfortable and better living at home than i did in town. I feel accepted at the singles branch and love the peaceful feeling at church. Lately when I talk to people they always say "When it rains is pours." while that is true I like to add another sentence to that, "when it rains it pours, BUT the bleessings are being poured upon us like a hurricane!" I just have to remember that sometimes.